How did I get here? I am five pounds from having a healthy BMI according to the BMI charts. Given that I have been seeing a personal trainer and have seen a significant change in my muscle composition, it feels likely that I’m already there given that those charts are averages and do not account for those who are doing an above average amount of weight training.
I got on the scale to update my weight this morning. After a few minutes it occurred to me that I am now only 25 pounds away from the weight that I set as my “in a perfect world” weight. it’s impossible to know if I will ever reach it (and it isn’t that important in the big picture of things). It’s still shocking to realize I’m this close to it!
I honestly cannot remember what my expectations were pre-surgery with respect to whether the scale ever reached my magic number. I know that I had learned prior to surgery that my surgeon’s goal weight for me would me higher than my personal goal weight. I know that, at the very least, I wanted to lose more than what was considered the average or normal amount of weight that I should expect to lose (which I had surpassed at my 9 month post-op visit). I just don’t remember what my actual expectations were.
I don’t know if it occurred to me at the time, but in hindsight, my magic number was always a bit unrealistic. After all, is it really reasonable for someone who has struggled with their weight their whole live and reached their highest weight (by far) at nearly 300 pounds to reach the weight they were at 30-35 years old when they are now approaching 50 years of age? Probably not.
I am, nonetheless, approaching that weight. And, while my weight loss has slowed some, it’s definitely still coming off. So, I guess . . . to be determined. Regardless, I feel good physically. I hoped but never imagined that my self-esteem would be so fully restored. I’m a more fun mom (because I can play and be active with my daughter) who will hopefully be around longer for all my children and grandchildren. Life is SO good!
Happy New Year! While I reached some phenomenal goals in 2020, I realize that saying adieu to 2020 is a good thing for other reasons. So, I have to give an overall shoutout to the new year. Yay! We made it!